*longing, searching, alone, empty…..* Desole.
sometimes, i get into this dark room feeling, into a deep hole that i can’t see my way out of it. more often than none, this feeling comes when i have made wrong choices and don’t think i can ever get out of the mess i have created for myself. i often bottle the issues hope cos i feel people expect more from me, i judge myself before others judge me. or maybe they do, indirectly, when they tell me what they feel, expect of me what they think i can do and can not do.
sometimes, most times when i get hurt, by people i feel should know better, their words are not enough to take away the pain….
I read this beautiful poem by jenim dibie (@scarville, http://scarcast.blog.com/ ). i have so much to say about it but i think you should make your own personal inference and connection just as i did. it would be unfair for me to take or add to her word. so here it is, “DESOLE”
(your thoughts about it are very welcomed)
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Life led wrongly
Heart beating for all the wrong reasons
Eyes searching for all but one
One searching for none but all…
A soul whose retina has lost focus
With lenses focused on fame and glory
With nothing but bare thoughts you write your story
To the ones mulled down
Desole means nothing
Iris painted with shades of gray
Good is gone and bad to stay
Fences are true haven for cowards
In taking no side, all stand pleased
Life forgives this not
Desole means nothing
Born great, living inane
Born king, living slave
Gifted, normal
Genius, unleashed
History pardons not this
Desole means nothing
A thief, a liar, a whore, a cheat
A failure, a dope-head, a sociopath, an outcast
Naked thoughts born benign become malignant
You are what you think
Society forgives you not
Desole means nothing
Alone, lost, jaded
Regrets, a little too late
Emptiness, loneliness, memories
Trees seem only for hanging
Rivers seem only for drowning
Time the maze that prepares banquets
Feeds you at the table of consequences
Time reveals all
Desole means nothing
Love given
Love lost
Love hurt
Still love searches through dark alleys
For the one who got away
“Desole!” your soul screamed silently
Love hears it
Love forgives all
Desole means everything…
